
One of the things I love in time like these is my BLOG. I initially started this blog to document my life as a open journal and what the Lord has been doing thru my life. Also, as of late I've been documenting just the randomness of what goes on in my everyday life. I love that I can come here and vent so to speak.
I logged onto blogger Saturday night because I really NEEDED to vent but I was taken away from the screen to tuck my girls into there beds. I think it's a good thing that happened. Sometimes is best not to say what is on your mind when you are feeling emotional. Not that what you will say will be bad but sometimes what you say when you are emotional you sometimes don't always mean.
A month ago when Aaron left Portsmouth to come up to NoVa to start his job he was in a car accident. A 18 yr old girl hit our car. Well, it's been in the shop for about a month now and we are supposed to get it back next week. Since that has happened we have had a rental in place of our camry and of course the family car that I normally drive.
This past Saturday I ran into the back of a Tahoe with the rental car. I was on my way to the post office and of course not knowing the area I was skeptical on my where abouts and also a little cautious. I HATE getting lost, especially by myself in a unfamiliar area. I saw the sign I needed to take and the way traffic was moving I missed the sign if I should go right or left. (The upcoming road is a road that is rt 1 south with the arrows and rt 1 north with the arrows) I glanced again to see if I would see those signs again and as I did that I was driving thru a intersection/light. Before I crossed the intersection the lane was a straight lane and soon as I drove thru the intersection the lane turned into a long turning lane ( I didn't realize that until after the accident was over. ). Traffic was moving and then suddenly stopped and I was glancing for my sign in the midst of the lane changing that was when I realized I was going straight into this truck. Once I realized that I immediately swerved to the left avoiding hitting him head on but I couldn't completely avoid him.
I don't know if any of you have ever been in an accident but I have been in some where it wasn't my fault and I of course have been in some where it was my fault. Let me tell you that is not the best feeling at all. You feel like crap..to put it literally. I felt bad for so many reasons.
Your confidence about yourself goes from THIS to this..... ( I mean that as literal as you see these words. You just feel like a horrible person and that is exactly how I felt Saturday.
Well, when you happy smiling little girls it's hard to just sit in your grief.
I had to stop feeling that way and realize the following:
1. How thankful and tremendously blessed I am. Undeserving-ly SO!!!
2. How blessed my family is.
3.You also realized it could have been worse.
4. You also feel how small you are compared to the bigger issues going on.
5. God humbles you...No doubt!!
6. You also realize how in control God is of EVERYTHING, not that you didn't know that before but just a reminder.
So we have had quite the weekend or month since living here. For a second you ask yourself Should we have not moved here ? Well, just like I was discussing that with Aaron I told him and he agreed, No I can't deny that the LORD had his hand completely on the situation for us to move here. I can't deny how he intricately worked it out. It could not have gone smoother. Aaron said from the outside looking in it might look bad, but we still remain faithful even when the going gets tough to God.
Our LOVE remains for GOD ALWAYS!!!!
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